An Overbearing Mother’s Dilemma
You wouldn’t assume I am the overbearing type. To be honest, I am not quite sure what overbearing means, but I think it means I really like being with my kids. I really like my kids. I am sure every mother likes their kids as much as they hate them at times :) But when they get all dressed, pack up their lunches and backpacks, put their shoes on, and hop in the car so smoothly, it’s like a dream. Especially when they say how excited they are for school. Except for when we get there they don’t want to go…and my heart breaks. What can I do? How can I fix this? How can I solve their pain? Aha! By not letting them go! We will go to a bouncy place instead! It will even be cheaper then school! And I will be with them, there to solve every problem and pain they ever might have, allowing them to live in the security bubble of “mommy is always there”. Mommy is always there, but Mommy wants you to learn how to be there for yourselves, my precious boys. Mommy wants you to use your words and ask and learn how to interact with other kids, as much as Mommy wants to just be with you. As emotional as Mommy feels right now about our separation. Oh my boys, I love you so much. If only you knew how I really feel when I drop you off, that I really would rather put everything aside I’d ever want to do just to spend time with you and be your Mommy. So I am trying, my boys. I am trying to learn how to balance being with you 100% of the time and allowing you space to blossom into yourselves. I know you will do great my boys, I believe in you and know how amazing you are. You are resilient and will get through this, despite our tears and sad faces. We will get through this and come out stronger. And we will spend time together boys, healthy time. I love you so much, Mommy.